I guess you could say i'm over it all. Just haven't been myself for the past week and a half or two so I guess I should get over it. Witht hat said I will be sticking to literature and starting my own fic soon. Also saying I should have chapter 3 up soon since i've already written most of it, some people like that fic but I don't know why. Also planning to make Virgil and Hworang fairly soon. All my drawing ideas have become useless so I won't bother with them. Right now back to Kingdom hearts 358/2 Days and Pokemon Platinum! My mother bought another DS so I hijacked it off her for a while and bought those two games <3 Go me!

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I just wanted to say that I quite liked the quiet darker side in my house and probably will return to it. just watching Gintama and Claymore for days on end doesn't sound too bad... Every job position i've tried for i've been rejected... And as you've guess, i've 1. Written off relationships. They are way too much trouble in the end. 2. Written off Girls. Again too much trouble and Can't be fucked. 3. Written off guys. I've never been "lucky" in that sense so i've given up on that too. Thinking that I might become Asexual. I don't know... Not talking to anyone except the few people I care about closely. Thats not much anymore but It's not gonna be anything where I ignored every single text. Ended up being about 110ish within 2 - 3 days.... No it's more like i'm not gonna come on MSN or DA or FB at all unless I want to upload the odd Chapter or if I managed to sketch something. Psh it's not like anyone cares here anyways...

Oh! And i'm gonna be at Collectormania at Earls Court on the 28th this month... As Grell Btw...

Cosplay plans, finished cosplays and groups:

Done cosplays:

Kuroshitsuji - Grell Sutcliff - Shinigami form (Still needs to get Teeth done)

Tales of Symphonia - Zelos Wilder (All done but the sword)

Cosplays in progress/plans:

Tekken 6 - Hworang

Tales of Eternia - Reid Hershel

Eternal Sonata - Frederic

Bleach - Nova, Stark

Metal Gear Solid 4 - Raiden

Metal Gear Online - Zuzu or Chesukun (Comical)

Monster Hunter Character Chesukun either Nargacuga blade master outfit + Duel blades or Nargacuga Gunner outfit with Nargacuga bow.

Devil May Cry - Vergil (Devil May Cry 3)

Final Fantasy Xiii - Snow

Announcing that at MCM May there will be a group of Devil May Cry cosplays where we are looking for people to fill every slot for every character possible. During MCM our leader Flower Assassin is going to try and book us a professional photo shoot for the whole group and see where that leads us. I’ve managed to find a photographer who is willing to perform a photo shoot with us in several DMC like locations. I just need to confirm at October mcm which is tomorrow.

Characters:

Dante - Flower Assassin
Vergil - Me
Nero - Happypillsxddr
Sparda - Yggdrasil-Incarnate
Trish - Open
Lady - Possibly closed
Arkham - Open
Jester - Open
Lucia - Open
Arius - Open
Sanctus - Open
Agnus - Open
Credo - Open
Eva - Open (Looks exactly like Trish)
Kyrie - Open
Matier - Open
Gloria - Open

And finally for a true fan:

Enzo Ferino - Open
Those who read the manga will know exactly who he is...

Groups:

DevastationCosplayUK
Uke Protection Agency
Dumbapples fanclub <-- Worships!! X3

This morning, I did act a little overboard, no matter, I'm just going to carry on not thinking about it. Sorry if the past journal bothered anyone at all, I was emotionally unstable :[

It's 5:01am and after realising somethings... I've hit my fucking lowest point. Suicidal thoughts are rushing through my head again... Thats funny I thought I buried them a long time ago... I've lost the one thing I wanted and could ask for but I realise i'm never getting that relationship back... So what the fuck can I do? I'm going mental and for some reason, reading two poems i'm starting to lose the love for her... I still love her so god damn fucking much but I know she likes someone else and will never get back with me. My darker mind has returned and now I couldn't give a flying fuck wether I'd live or die right now! I just couldn't give a shit. I'm panicking at the fact I've lost her and it's becoming too much emotionally... Should I give up on her alltogether and hope she stays as a close friend with me like she once was bit I doubt it'd be that close anymore... Why bother chasing something I can't have anymore... What the fuck is wrong with me. Now if you excuse me I'm going to be sick for a while from the emotional feelings I'm getting from missing her so god damn much... I love her so much and will never get her back... Great and fucking good night! Or good morning I should say...

After spending more then countless hours on the armchair awake for a few days. I've come to the conclusion that even if it costs me my own happiness... I just want that person to be happy yet I'll still not give up. I've already talked to my dad seriously and he's considering moving to Taunton now anyways since he's seen how serious I was last night. He's gonna try and talk to mother and even I will, once she sees how serious I am about moving to or just outside to Taunton maybe she will listen... I will say I still love you but I guess it's kinda useless to say that anyways. I always end up losing everyone and everything jhust like my mother told me all those years ago...


Cosplay plans, finished cosplays and groups:

Done cosplays:

Kuroshitsuji - Grell Sutcliff - Shinigami form (Still needs to get Teeth done)

Tales of Symphonia - Zelos Wilder (All done but the sword)

Cosplay’s in progress/plans:

Tales of Eternia – Reid Hershel

Eternal Sonata - Frederic

Bleach - Nova, Stark

Metal Gear Solid 4 – Raiden

Metal Gear Online - Zuzu or Chesukun (Comical)

Monster Hunter Character Chesukun either Nargacuga blade master outfit + Duel blades or Nargacuga Gunner outfit with Nargacuga bow.

Devil May Cry – Vergil (Devil May Cry 3)

Final Fantasy Xiii – Snow

Announcing that at MCM May there will be a group of Devil May Cry cosplays where we are looking for people to fill every slot for every character possible. During MCM our leader Flower Assassin is going to try and book us a professional photo shoot for the whole group and see where that leads us. I’ve managed to find a photographer who is willing to perform a photo shoot with us in several DMC like locations. I just need to confirm at October mcm which is tomorrow.

Characters:

Dante - Flower Assassin
Vergil - Me
Nero - Happypillsxddr
Sparda - Yggdrasil-Incarnate
Trish - Your-dead-to-me
Lady - Possibly closed
Arkham - Open
Jester - Open
Lucia - Open
Arius - Open
Sanctus - Open
Agnus - Open
Credo - lhead
Eva - Open (Looks exactly like Trish)
Kyrie - Open
Matier - Open
Gloria - Open

And finally for a true fan:

Enzo Ferino - Open
Those who read the manga will know exactly who he is...

Groups:

DevastationCosplayUK
Uke Protection Agency
Dumbapples fanclub <-- Worships!! X3

Just wondering if I should move to Taunton still or not... I love it there, some nice friends but i've also made new friends in london too... Should I or not...

Cosplay plans, finished cosplays and groups:

Done cosplays:

Kuroshitsuji - Grell Sutcliff - Shinigami form (Still needs to get Teeth done)

Tales of Symphonia - Zelos Wilder (All done but the sword)

Cosplay’s in progress/plans:

Tales of Eternia – Reid Hershel

Eternal Sonata - Frederic

Bleach - Nova, Stark

Metal Gear Solid 4 – Raiden

Metal Gear Online - Zuzu or Chesukun (Comical)

Monster Hunter Character Chesukun either Nargacuga blade master outfit + Duel blades or Nargacuga Gunner outfit with Nargacuga bow.

Devil May Cry – Vergil (Devil May Cry 3)

Final Fantasy Xiii – Snow

Announcing that at MCM May there will be a group of Devil May Cry cosplays where we are looking for people to fill every slot for every character possible. During MCM our leader Flower Assassin is going to try and book us a professional photo shoot for the whole group and see where that leads us. I’ve managed to find a photographer who is willing to perform a photo shoot with us in several DMC like locations. I just need to confirm at October mcm which is tomorrow.

Characters:

Dante - Flower Assassin
Vergil - Me
Nero - Happypillsxddr
Sparda - Yggdrasil-Incarnate
Trish - Open
Lady - Open
Arkham - Open
Jester - Open
Lucia - Open
Arius - Open
Sanctus - Open
Agnus - Open
Credo - Open
Eva - Open (Looks exactly like Trish)
Kyrie - Open
Matier - Open
Gloria - Open

And finally for a true fan:

Enzo Ferino - Open
Those who read the manga will know exactly who he is...

Groups:

DevastationCosplayUK
Uke Protection Agency
Dumbapples fanclub <-- Worships!! X3